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Alright, forget that I said whatever I did. DMCP is not gonna happen. I'll just have to find another way out.


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OK, here's the deal: I betrayed myself and applied for RMIT's Marketing instead of SUNY's Double Major in Communication and Psychology for $40k, and my heart is biting back.

I am interested in marketing, I am. But if I take on the latter - let's call it DMCP for short - I'll have more options. I'll be able to branch into events and advertising and do away with all that sales stuff that people love to term as marketing while still having the option of pursuing journalism if I ever get good enough.

DMCP sounds like a dream, right? But for some reason, the course, as with all SUNY courses, is priced at a whooping $57 780, minus the cost of coursebooks. To be fair, it's a four-year programme, but then again with that money I could take up two degrees and still have some left over.

If I do take up DMCP, it means that we'll either have to scrimp like crazy because dad has decided to completely retire or take up a bank loan, which would be quite stupid. And I still can't get over the fact that they haven't saved up for my education. I guess it's fair then; I'm not the only one who failed someone.



To make things worse, I just found out that the Marketing course doesn't even offer an honours programme, which is what I had planned to aim for. I'm not sure if DMCP has it but I sure hope it does because I need to know that I can make it to the top, at the very helm of things. Because I've finally matured, and because this isn't FDM- this is something I actually like.



One cool thing about SIM is that it has a pool club. That means free pool right? Definitely gotta train for that. Pear, will you please transform me into a pool goddess?

It's made up of the best of both worlds.

It's the one place where you can have your cake served to you on a silver platter and eat it too.

And of course, it's non-existent.



Not too long ago, I learnt that I am an idealist. That's when I knew that I had to change, because if I were to stay that way, second best is the best I'll ever get.

Idealism stunts satisfaction; if perfection is all we recognise, nothing will be enough. But how, I wonder, do we gauge how much, or how little, we should be content with?

Also, how do I change my mindset? It's like studying- you know that you should, but you just can't concentrate, even though you've got your butt in your chair, notes all ready.


I'm trying to change, and I will change. One day, I will be good enough for you.

Reviewing New Year Resolutions 2009


Become a hardcore optimist
I think I've slid down the ladder, if anything. Not too long ago, I discovered that I am an idealist, and Pear has nodded affirmative. That's definitely going to get in the way.

Stop the behavioral spasms
I think I'm halfway there.

Read more
I have been reading more of the news (online). Books, not so much.

Sleep solo
Achieved! Except for days on which my bed is littered with stuff that I can't be bothered to put away.

Drink more water
I'm pretty sure I drink at least one glass each day, thanks to ZX and HZ (they always serve me a mug of water at the start of our lessons. I really miss the kids): , so that means I'm on track.

Go ambidextrous
Haven't tried this yet. Sounds completely tedious.

Develop five major skills

• Passed BTT; have yet to take FTT
• Am learning French online
• Mahjong- did I learn it this year? I sure hope so. Yes, I think I did. So yeah, that counts :B